been influenced by this video by sadhguru jaggi vasudev…
trying to hop off my pedestal.
egad my pedestal isn’t a tallish stool that I thought it was. erm. it’s made of quicksand.
for the three days since I watched this video, i am actively trying to change my perspective of my firstborn. i try to think he is a cherished friend — say someone like V.
and if he really was, i figure he would get my attention, my regard, an open heart and conversation.
else, standing on that icky sticky pedestal, i have been bossy, judgmental, impatient and non-specifically rude.
sigh. what a lot of work lies ahead in the clean-up.
i hope your pedestal is just a low low stool. easy hop on easy hop off.